One of the main church purposes is, as I think,
development of this high morale merits in the
However, Russian Orthodox Church position, which
at present day represents main religion confession
in Russia, Ukraine and Belarus, as it formed historically,
took unappeasable position towards transsexualism
Sometimes this position is very tough, and this
does not favor development of love and tolerance
in the society.
Vice versa, intolerance of church itself develops
the same intolerance of man to man in the society.
I was forced to discuss many times with Russian
Orthodox Church representatives about that questions.
To my regret I don't hear convincing enough reasons.
Generally priest use citations from Holy writ,
where you could not find a word about transsexualism
and transsexuals. In no one, I underline, no one
holy writ,whether Jewish tora,bible or Koran,
you could never face
a mention about transsexualism.
Generally all the priests of Russian Orthodox
Church refer to social conception fundamentals
of Russian Orthodox Church, XII.9. http://lib.eparhia-saratov.ru/books/noauthor/basics/13.html.
However I will notice, that during accepting of
the doctrine in part concerning GLBT,Church servants
follows the commentaries of not unknown Anatoly
Berestov, the neuropathologist, who was engaged
at his time, not too luckily as I think, because
it was not his profile, with transgender problems.
And in practice, as opposed to dead at this time
professor Belkin, understanding nothing in this
In this document one can read many interesting
things: about aborts and about those who perform
it, about gays, transvestites e t. c.
And they try to support this all with citations
from Holy writs.
But what have an interest - when discussion concerns
the transsexualism there are no direct citations.
There are exist quite blurred ideas and ambiguous
expressions of Holy sages, which they try fit
to given problem.
Trying to fill missing gap, Church decide to think
of next (citation):
"If sex change happens with one before christening,
he can be admitted to this sacrament as any other
sinner, but church will Christ him as belonging
to the sex he was born. Ordination of such man
to the holy rank and his entry to the church marriage
is unacceptable" (end of citation).
Proceeding from foregoing one can make the next
resume: Church recognizes transsexualism,but consider
this as a sin. And this chapter finishes so:
"from transsexualism it is to be differed
wrong orientation of sex belonging in early childhood
as a result of medicine mistake, linked with development
pathology of gender indications. In this case
surgical operation does not carry the sex change
nature. Sorry, but wrong identification of sex
belonging in early childhood can be observed among
patients independent from whether it happens as
a result of medical mistake of obstetrician, who
have not noticed in time pathology in the time
of child birth, or as a result of genetic level
malfunction during mother pregnancy, which can
happen as a result of the same medical mistake
or oversight of gynecologist, who observed the
pregnancy progress, and don't notice the expectant
mother in time about existence of pharmacology
drugs,which sets, for example, in case of men's
prostate cancer, on contact with which it is possible
that such genetic malfunction happens. Wrong gender
belonging identification is transsexualism exactly.
So the Church messed up existing terms. What about
theses about castration one by himself, which
also often adduced as arguments,here we have the
Holy Orthodox Church rules with bishop Nikodim
Part 1, holy apostles: rules 18-24. Rule 22:
"One who castrate himself would not be accepted
to clergy. Self-murderer Bo is an enemy of god's
"layman, who castrates himself would be isolated
from sacraments for 3 years.
Because he is navetnik of his life.
This speech is about body deformity, or if to
be more accurate, about deformity which one made
with his body by himself, and which prevents him
from entering the sacred title. Abstention from
marriage cohabitation for the sake of sky reign,
about which sais Jesus Christ (Mf 19:12).
Church recognizes it, for its servants whose mission
is to strive the sky reign, as an especially praiseworthy
(Here some text haven't been translated)
It follows that the one who NATURE itself or VIOLENCE
people like oskoplenie fired, was not in itself
guilty,but oskoplenie, which produced some on
themselves, should have been considered a serious
sin before God and regarded as some sort of suicide.
This explains the origin of apostolic dedication,which
was expressed in Ap.pravilah mentioned, the true
concept of the Church of abstinence and moral
qualities, as clerics, and all Christians at all.
Most likely, the direct reason for publication
of the Apostolic rules, in the form of law, served
as a sect valesiyan referred Epifaniem (haer.
and Augustin (haer. 37) and raised in Century II.
This sect, interpreting in their own famous words of Jesus Christ (Matt. 19:12), introduced a host oskoplenie.
Against this sect and were directed data Apostolskie rules, and sharpness with which they are contained, shows that its nechelovechny example threatened to "infection".
However, it is necessary to assume that this unfortunate "infect" sufficiently expanded, as a repetition of the same rules we meet at I Vsel.
Cathedral and later in the IX century Constantinople at the Cathedral of St. in the temple. Apostles.
"So here and get that transseksualizm is not no sin, and ordinary illness, took place at the genetic level, proof of modern science." Someone who very nature of violence or people like oskoplenie fired, was not in itself guilty " .
From the foregoing it can be concluded that church very often, is trying, as they say, simply "fit" extracts from the Holy Scriptures, under those or other problems, which she does not know the answer.
This attitude has made to the people Dushi confusion, fear and sometimes bezishodnost.
As an example, cite excerpts from a letter transseksualki much faith, which allowed me to use our correspondence, but asked not to call her behalf.
Thank for your reply
I can't understand, no one understands me.
Wall is everywhere, I can't see an exit. This
Maybe you can help me to understood myself
I am religious
Religious not by words, and not only in soul.
In February my spiritual father has died.
It is over, there is no more man who can pray
I will not get in details, but I was a "healer"
of great strength.
But my apprehensions, whether this gift from god
or not, brings me to the temple, to the god.
Being realized that all this is a "diabolicalness"
I leave it.
From this time all begins
"Demon" showed himself at his full grace
I have survived, survived by my confessor's prays,
fraternity's prays of monasteries in which I was
God forgives me.
But health have not been restored yet.
The fact that church does not accept my inner
feelings is false. Church accepts physical sex,
and deviations from it too, but not inner disorder.
I try to fight down this all in me for many years
Sometimes it happens that up to 2-3 month I excellently
live with feeling that all that was before it
was not my wishes, not my thoughts and feelings
But moment comes and I got broken.
Inner conflict begins to develop with extremely
And then it's over…
I don't want to live, but I can't go to another
I haven't rights to cut string of life
If I do so, I would doom myself to eternal sorrow.
And then, already there, my current sorrow would
seem to me as a heaven.
There is no exit
Nowhere to run from myself.
I can't more. CAN'T
I understood that what I do is a fatal sin.
But I can do nothing with me.
Conscience or something else, word to word eats
me from within.
I got entangled completely
There are no life in evil and lie, there are no
happiness, gladness, love…
Evil destructs on its own, and hold it in oneself
is foolish. It will destroy you.
So this is the letter
It is a cry of a soul which toss from side to
side and can't find an exit from created situation.
Replying it I tried to solve this girl's problems
together with her.
"Lets begin from a statement that situations
without an exit just don't exist. Trust me!"
I am very familiar with such feeling. In the last
years I have experienced something like this.
It looks like peoples turn away from me. No. They
stay near. I see them, hear, communicate. But
there was feeling that no one see me or hear me.
I have lost my friends, loved work. Confidence
in myself and in my strengths. And the most essence
I have lost understanding of friends and peoples
who was dear to me. It seems to me that I am dead.
My soul wander among peoples. Trying to knock
to their minds and hearts. But there was impenetrable
dumb wall around. A wall of misunderstanding and
alienation. Whether I necessary to no one? Or
just I exist no more? This is horrible, terrifying
condition! I remember it up to now.
In such complex periods fate set up a man before
1. Easiest, at first look, but most absurd decision
is to declare to yourself that further life have
no sense. And swallowing a tables, or by any other
method, leave it on your free will. I can't judge
a man for such choice. But I must try to do anything
possible to dissuade him from making such absurd
decision. Why? I would say about it later.
2. Submit with "hard" fate and "swim
with stream", silencing intolerable soul
pain and offence with alcohol or drugs. This is
the reason of why many peoples just becomes drunkards
and get down to the very "bottom" of
society. This way is equal to suicide. Just not
physical suicide, but spiritual. Although physical
death comes to such peoples much earlier then
it is supposed.
And there is one more way
3. Uneasy way of continuous struggle
Struggle, in first place, for yourself. Here I
want to cite my favorite writer Paulo Koelio:
"The sense of existence is to fall seven
times and get up eight times"
(Here some text haven't been translated)
"In that night left one Yakov Foo and struggled with him until you see dawn, I saw that not odolevaet him, said:" My Father "I told Yakov:" You are not released until you bless me. "
He said: How is your name? He said: Yakov. He said: from now on you will not name Yakov, and Israel; because you struggled with God and man odolevat will. "
"Sometimes it is necessary to struggle good luck. With each person there can be a misfortune: destruction of a city, death of the son, unfair charge, incurable illness... At this time the God TESTS the person that that has answered Its question:" What for you so cling to a life, after all it is short and full of sufferings?
What sense in your struggle? "Then the one who cannot answer this question, reconciles.
And the one who searches for meaning of the life, decides, that the God has arrived unfairly.
Such person will go against the Destiny. During this instant, from heavens other fire - not that kills descends, and that destroys old walls and opens to everyone its true gift.
Cowardly never will admit, that this fire has lighted their heart. Everything, that is necessary for them, - that new in a life most likely became habitual. Then they can live further and think how before.
And brave betray to fire all old and, even by HUGE SINCERE SUFFERING, leave all and go forward. "Brave are always obstinate".
Looking from the sky, the Lord smiles for pleasure, after all just He and wants it - that each person himself was responsible for the life. Eventually, the Lord has generously presented children with ability to make the CHOICE and to make the DECISION. Only at whom in heart sacred fire was lighted, dare to struggle good luck. And only they know a way back to Its love for come to understanding of that the MISFORTUNE is a TEST, instead of PUNISHMENT ".
Such a trial my own soul has passed. First way
was absolutely unacceptable. First this is great
sin. Depriving his life man dooms his soul to
eternal suffering. Such a soul, as it defined
not only in many religions but also in esoteric
science, wander between "sky and earth",
between "worlds" looking for asylum,
until it would be completely devoured and shredded
to pieces by dark forces. This is really "worse
then get in hell". In the second place I
have never looked for easy ways. Second way, as
I think, is equal to first. Just man perform spiritual
suicide. For me I choose third way. The way of
continuous struggle. Whatever hard it would be.
In the first place I tried to see me from a side.
By eyes of perfectly another, outside man. I tried
to analyze, what bring me to this condition. But
in youth everyone find me cheerful, buoyant man.
Man who smiles always and to everyone. Man who
love to live, who gifts gladness of this love
to peoples around him. So what has happened? Where
this festal soul condition gone? Here one can
find many objective and subjective causes. Death
of dear peoples. Hard material condition. Joblessness.
Family conflicts and disorders. And much, much
But there is one, as I see it, the main cause:
We see the world such as we are.
World is our mirror reflection.
In that hard and complex for me period I eats
myself from within and, naturally, ties to demand
same requirements to peoples around me. Only later
I understood that every man is unrepeatable and
individual on his own. Every man is an independent
world. It is independent space. But we all tied
with some thin, invisible thread. Each of us is
a small piece of something big.
What helps me at that time "After seven fallings
get up eights time"? Here I present records
from my diary, which I write while I still was
(From the diary)
2002, 12 of November
"No one, nothing will do anything to you,
except yourself! Set up your aim, goal, and look
for a way to make it happens!". "Nothing
in the life performs accidentally". "You
see peoples around you as you are" If you
relate to peoples around you with distrust, consider
they are bad, evil, unworthy of you - exactly
in the same manner world around relates to you.
Considering you are evil, bad and unworthy of
2002, 25 of November
My mistake is that I offend to all. I have fenced
myself of the world and retreat into myself. As
a result - world has fenced off me. My attempts
to communicate or waiting for help faced the wall
of alienation and misunderstanding.
Open yourself to the world and world would open
to you. Learn to forgive and not to take notice
to offend inflicted to you. Remember - this is
life and the Creator tests you, your spiritual
strength. To the evil reply with good. In spite
of everything try to do something pleasant to
peoples around you, and the life would reward
you for that. This is the records!"
"I am religious
Religious not by words, and not only in soul.
In February my spiritual father has died.
It is over, there is no more man who can pray
Why have you decided so. Our dear peoples, and
all the more our spiritual advisors continue to
support us, and pray for us, leaving to another
"But my apprehensions, whether this gift
from god or not led me to the temple, to the god…
Realizing that all of that is "devilry",
I quit…God forgave me"
This one more time approves that Your soul is
at side of Light, not darkness. And what you have
passed is an redemption for that you done earlier.
Reckoning is always inevitable. Main thing is
that you found strength in yourself to get out
of this circle. Honor and praise to you for this!
You are strong person!
"Church accepts physical sex, deviations
from it too, but not inner conflict"
Looks like you, probably, expressed not quite
correctly. Church always was for unity of soul
For harmony between them. Because of
if there are no such unity, as it can be observed
among transsexuals, it leads to karmic fault.
One can say system balance fails. This is fraught
with chaos and complete destruction of System,
World, Space, call it as you want. Man is independent,
unrepeatable world. This is independent space.
And his death, you can trust me, would not bring
the gladness to Creator.
"For a long time I try to overcome this…
Inner conflict began to develop with great strength…
And then it is over…"
This is the third way I sad about earlier. The
way of continuous struggle. This one more time
proves the strength of your spirit. You can achieve
many in your life. Mai thing for you is to define
and make a decision. This is very hard to do.
But once you made an uneasy choice. You found
strength inside you and gone from the dark side
to light. Now it is coming to you to make something
like that. But now, as distinct from last choice,
this step would be much easier to do. Main thing
is to hear what your heart says. And speak through
it with you would your spiritual adviser. Hear
the voice of your heart.
Falsehood! Exit is always exists.
"nowhere to run from myself…"
This is true. You can run nowhere from yourself!
What is foreordained to you by fate must be passed.
Whatever hard it would be. This is your cross,
and you have to carry it to the end.
"I understood all I do is a mortal sin. But
I can do nothing with myself… Conscience or something
else, word to word, eats me from within…"
At the first place, there are no peoples without
sins in the world. You know that. At the second,
there are different sins, including more terrible
than what you decide the sin. Here I present one
more citation of my teacher: "There are only
two forbidden things - one according to peoples
law, the other according to god. Never force one
to sex, it consider rape. And never have sex with
children, this is the worst sin. In all other
things you are free!"
"There are no life in lie and evil, no happiness,
gladness, love… Evil destructs by itself, and
hold it inside is foolish. It will destroy you".
So, clear head! You has said all right. You has
just splendid confessor. He laid such a great
spiritual base in you! From this well you can
draw and drink for a many and many years! And
each time it would give you strength. I wish you
Luck and Strength in the struggle. And i also
wish you unity between your body and your soul.
Fondly embrace you, Janna."
Trust me, I don't protest against church! I, as
many other peoples, am a religious man. It is
just very offensively to me that Orthodox Church
with its thought and vision on modern world problems
are still at the middle age level. And as you
know life is not stand at place. With every year
world make new and new discovers and church, in
my humble opinion, might not to fall behind this
progress. Even such a conservative and tough Islam
religion, in which for, as it seems, not so terrible
sins one can be beaten with rocks to the death,
has recognized transsexualism. Mussulmans spiritual
leader Irana Ayatola Homeini published special
religious law, according to which transsexualism
doesn't considered as a sin and permits sex change
operations in his country. At present day Iran
have a second place in the world after Thailand,
where such operations performs, which was repeatedly
wrote in press.
I hope that in the near future our Russian Orthodox
Church will follow this reasonable example, and
peoples began to relate to each other with even
much understanding, trust and love! I really want
to believe in that.
Zhanna Wilde ® 2008г.
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